WHERE ARE YOU HIDING?

By Ayla

A solitary beach,

like my heart,

like my soul,

longing for you desperately…

An arid desert,

as dry as my eyes

from crying so much…

A restless sea like my mind,

for having not achieved finding you already…

Where are you hiding yourself, my life?

Where will I find you?

Tell me something…

Speak…

Whisper even if it’s an only word…

and I will be there,

waiting for you with eagerness…

I will walk beyond the dunes,

where the sun intensely burns,

desiccating everything in its path.

I will be afraid of nothing or no one.

Not even, the thickest fog will prevent me

from advancing on my trail…

I won’t be frightened if another day

passes by without hearing from you.

I will know how to wait patiently

for a new sunrise

with renewed hopes…

And when the night falls,

I will pray for having you soon

between my arms.

To kiss you non stop,

To embrace you tenderly…

… And to feel you’re at last mine…

So, rest assured

I will look for you without a break.

No matter when, neither how nor where.

I will stir up heaven and earth

until I find you.

Nevertheless, if even so, I don’t attain it,

my life, I tell you…

That only God will know

how much for you I have fought…

Tearing my soul every day a little more.

That at some moments,

my strength, my hopes and my impetus

felt like weakening

without being able to help it…

That many occasions

I also felt trapped

into an infuriate sea.

Feeling that I finally drowned,

that I died under its waters…

And other times,

my sadness was so intense and profound

that the most beautiful of flowers

didn’t even make me smile…

That neither, contemplating

the smooth flight of birds of passage

granted to my tormented soul

just a bit of peace and serenity…

However, my life,

I will never regret what I had made.

Although you ended up becoming my madness,

my obsession…

My craziest desperation.

© Ayla 11/26/06